Chapter Not again
I stayed calmed as I watched mom smile happily,
I knew that I had never seen her this happy her entire life, this was literally the first time that I was seeing her this happy and I knew that I just couldn't come and take that happiness away from her, I just have to let her be and be happy. I could see the man smiling and talking with my uncle and from the look of things everyone in our family had already accepted him and it was just as if I hadn't accepted him because I was the only one that hadn't spoken to him.. I noticed the whole dining was suddenly quiet and when I raised my head Il everyone was staring at me like I had done something wrong and even mom was looking at me like I was some kind of ghost and that was what I never understood, what were they looking at me like that, I don't like it and I will never like it, and why should I even do that.
"Don't tell me that she's just moody because she thinks that her mom is going to be watching her silly ass everyday "Uncle Jerry said and that was when I. totally lost it, I just couldn't stand it.
"I think I already had enough of all your troubles all this years, I know you never like me, but you can you please just let me be, you have your money, you have your life, you have everything that you had ever wanted but just yet you can't let me be, you keep pestering me like I deserve it, like what did I do to deserve that, I wouldn't say this again, you and aunt tara should stay the fuck away from me, stay away from me and leave me alone, allow me leave my life in peace and even if you don't like it don't showed it to my face, hide your dubious character, you keep saying that I am the cause of everything and the reason why mom Couldn't go far in life, like how was that supposed to be my fault, I want the one who had sex with her, I wasn't the one who impregnated her, I never asked her to keep me, she should had aborted me when she couod instead of making me fell like this all this years, yes I accept the fact that mom did everything to make sure that I am happy and I never lost anything in life and she tried her best to make sure that she fills that space of a father in my life, but you just remind me of everything and make me feel miserable over and and over again, you did so many horrible things to me as kid, or is the the fact that I never said a thing about it, I would never do anything to make sure that this family name get drain's all I had ever done was to make sure that I never disappointed mom, stop pointing fingers at me, stop blaming me because am not the cause of mom reckless teenager life am not the caused if it. yes I accept the fact that mom did everything to make sure that I am happy and I never lost anything in life and she tried her best to make sure that she fills that space of a father in my life, but you just remind me of everything and make me feel miserable over and and over again, you did so many horrible things to me as kid, or is the the fact that I never said a thing about it, I would never do anything to make sure that this family name get drain's all I had ever done was to make sure that I never disappointed mom, stop pointing fingers at me, stop blaming me because am not the cause of mom reckless teenager life am not the caused if it
Enough! Enough! Theodora, I think that I had enough, no matter how bad your Uncle talks to you, you have no right to talk to him like this, his my elder brother an, stop trying to be right, when did you turn out this way, I taught you to be a good girl, how Could you start shouting in just a Middle of a dinner I thought you were the one who always wanted. a father then why are you behaving this way towards him, just stop it already, you dare not talk about me having, don't make me regret my decision of keeping you, stop making my family's feel bad, stop it "m screamed at me and I Could tell that she was at the verge of tears and and was just holding it from exploding within her.
I bowed my head in shame, I just realized that I had acted reckless, I should have just kept it a secret and not this stupid useless character that I had just showed to them.
"Am sorry mom, I never meant to "I said bowing my head.
"You better be sorry, you better be, cause you had no right to talk about the life that I had as a teenage, how dare you, do you know what I have been through just because of you, how dare you dora, how dare you remind me of that, the sacrifices I made for you were they not with it how dare you make me regret "how dare you mom yelled crying.
I couldn't help the tears that flowed out of my eyes, I made mom cry, I couldn't believe that I am responsible for this.
."Mom am sorry, am sorry for doing this, I swear I just wanted to protect you"
"protect me from what "mom asked angrily.
"From him mom, you can't get married to this man, he doesn't deserve you one bit, you can't get married to him and even if you do I will never accept him as my step father, you really don't have to do this mom, don't marry this man "I told her crying.
I could see the whole place suddenly become calm as I finished saying that I guess that they were all shocked by what I had just said and they never really expected it to be that way. "Why don't you tell me why "mom asked me.
I bowed my head in shame. I knew that there's no way that I would tell them I had a one night stand with someone I hardly knew, it's only going to give my uncle more ways to Criticize me.
"I just don't like him mom and I don't think that he's the best for you "I replied
I saw mom's face change from that calm to that fierce angry and terrible look I guess that she was so angry at the moment m"You silly little bitch, I think that I should have listened to my brother all these years and given you off to the orphaned, how dare you, how dare you try to make me look like a fool "mom screamed and before I knew it I got a hard slap on my cheeks.
The man who had been quiet all this while suddenly rushed up and held mom back.
""It's okay Tessy, you know she's still your daughter, I guess she's just being paranoid by the fact that another person would be entering into her life, I guess with time she would get used to it and I guess it's just for the best, just calm down and let me. talk to "the man said mom hugged him sobbing loudly, I had never felt so guilty my entire life just the way I felt today.
"Let me talk to her, we will be back "the man said and without waiting for their reply he began to drag me out of the room without looking back.
He dragged me straight to the kitchen and the moment we got in he kicked the door and instantly pushed me to the door and started walking towards me till my back was touching the door.
"Don't tell me you were going to tell everyone that you had sex with me, what are you even thinking, what makes you think that your mom would belive you "he asked me with a silly smile on his face as he place his hands on top of me. I looked at the man with disgust, he knew I was my mother daughter all alone but yet he still had the guts to have sex with Mr, how brutal it could be.
"You monster, how do you expect me to let my mom get married to someone who I know is already involved with me, you already engaged mom but yet you were cheating on her "I told him.
"The man didn't reply to me, but instead he slowly took his hands to my breast and grabbed them. I didn't know how it happened but when he did that I found myself moaning out.
The man seemed to know my weak point because the next moment he was sulking on my neck slightly and that was when I started Losing my senses.
"please stop this isn't right I moaned as his hands began to go to my skirt but he didn't stop neither did I try to stop him I was already gone.
I knew I was already wet, because the wetness soaked my panties to the point that I was dripping hard.
"You are so wet for me baby and I love it," he said smiling.
"You don't have to worry, it is going to give you immense pleasure, just the one you had always wanted.