The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

136 Balance is a myth … Ramsey We arrived at White Lake Pack a few minutes later .

Elder Thorne had come out to welcome us and immediately offered to take Nathan to where Lyla was .

I and the priestess followed behind walking at a normal pace when I saw her slow down and wait for me until we were walking side by side .

eyes glazing You remind me so much of your parents , Lycan Leader , she said softly , her eyes wistfully as she gave me a small smile .

I turned to her , momentarily surprised that she was bringing my parents up suddenly .

You knew my parents ? I asked .

She nodded , her smile growing into a wide grin now .

Who didnt ? she chuckled .

I knew them very well : they were extraordinary and one of the best couples our world has ever seen .

They were brave , loyal and deeply in love .

They had one of the most intense mate bonds Ive ever seen despite being born into different worlds .

They existed peacefully and we all knew they would never be able to survive without each other .

On the day of their Joining Ceremony , their wish was to die together .

I let out a bitter laugh as my steps slowed .

Brave , loyal and deeply in love , I repeated sarcastically .

If they were so obsessed with each other , why did they even bother to have a child ? I clearly was a hassle to them or an inconvenience , they couldnt have birthed me at all because I never meant anything to them .

The priestess sighed .

Life is rarely fair , she said gently .

No matter how much we wish it were otherwise , it never is .

Balance is a myth we tell ourselves to make sense of the chaos .

Im sure your parents loved you in their own way , but their love for each other was so overwhelming that it consumed everything else .

Nothing is ever truly even Ive seen how parents obessess with their children .

They want to spend every waking moment with them but I didnt have that luxury .

I was raised by nannies and maids and the Butler .

Whenever my dad was not working , he was always with my mom … they did everything together -the only time they were my parents was during compulsory family events and my mom … would brush my head and give me a smile then complains to the maids that I looked thin or the clothes I had on wasnt the right size and that was all .

And my dad … I trailed off with a scoff .

Hell pat me on my shoulders and say Thats my boy .

Lennys mother would not let him leave the house to play without dressing him with all the safety gadgets in the world .

She would cook for him , pack his food she wasnt a great cook and she was my mothers Beta but she never allowed her busy schedule to be in the way of taking care of her son .

My parents had no excuse for acting like literal pricks to me .

She stopped walking , her hands reached out to touch my arm , the gesture forcing me to turn and face her as her eyes bored into mine .

I saw pity in them .

Its time to forgive your parents ; she said firmly .

Theres no need for that .

They werent my parents long enough for me to forgive them .

They 130 Balance is a myth … died and left me so why should I bother ? Do you know what its like to grow up knowing youll always come second to something you cant compete with ? It eats at you but that was my reality .

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I learnt from an early age that Ill never be a priority Still , youre hanging on to the hurt , she said quietly I know their choices left scars on you , you have to let it go for your sake .

Its blocking your path , interfering with meaningful relationships .

At least for your sake do it and not for theirs .

I didnt say anything .

She would never understand and I was tired of explaining myself .

So , I exhaled sharply and resumed walking .

We walked together side by side until she broke the silence again .

Would you like to help Lyla instead of Alpha Nathan ? Im sure he wont object if I tell him .

I shook my head .

No ! but She glanced at me , her brow arching slightly .

How long are you going to deny the mate bond between you and Lyla ? The red thread of fate between you and her is so potent , even the short break you took didnt change anything .

I let out a weary sigh .

Im not denying it anymore , I admitted .

Lyla doesnt want to be with me .

Shes made that clear enough .

Before the priestess could comment on that , I hurriedly cut her off and continued .

Its fine .

Ive let her go .

She wants to be with Nathan and I want her to be happy .

Thats all that matters .

How about what you want ? The Priestess asked softly .

I opened my mouth to speak and then shook my head , attempting a smile .

I was taught that my wants and needs comes last .

My priority is to this world and the safety of all the packs and the people .

When everyone is safe , Ill be happier .

Cant The Priestess sighed shaking her head Youre still too young to play burden bearer , Ramsey .

you fix whatever the problem is with you and Lyla … shell need you by her side eventually I … I paused , a sad smile tugging at the corners of my lips .

I have never made her happy … I never make her happy , I said with resignation .

No matter what I do , no matter how much I try to remind myself that shes the one for me , whenever shes with me , shes miserable .

We fight more than we talk and … I swallowed hard .

Ive seen how she smiles and laughs around Nathan .

She lights up with him in a way she never does with me .

Maybe both of you need to sit down and talk things out .

I chuckled .

Weve done that several times and each time we meet , we reject each other again .

I always end up saying the wrong words , words she doesnt want to hear but its fine .

Ive resigned myself to my fate .

I just hope she gets the love she truly deserves with Nathan .

You wont last with Cassidy , the priestess sighed .

Your marriage is not going to be favourable .

Would you rather live with that for the rest of your life ? Your laws about divorce are stricter than Werewolves and none of the Lycan Leaders before you have ever needed to divorce their mates .

Are you ready to put up with that ? Im used to all sorts of loneliness , Mother Liora , I said quietly .

The only person that matters to me more than my grandfather right now is Lyla and since shes fine , I can withstand any other < 136 Balance is a myth ….

thing .

As for Cassidy … well be fine .

I just need to pay more attention to her and put up with her antics but she listens to me though .

Everything will work out eventually .

The priestess exhaled deeply and then nodded .

Soon , the Ferals would be a thing of the past .

Lyla will heal our world .

Dont worry , I know shes yet to fully accept it but Im sure after she comes back things will change and Nathan moved up his coronation to keep her here .

I nodded and we continued walking in silence .

As we reached the door to Lylas room , I remembered there was something Id been dying to find out from the priestess .

The more I thought about it , the more it worried me and I needed to know if it wasnt just me seeing it .

Mother Liora ! I called her to her quietly .

She turned to face me .

Yes , Alpha ! Theres something Ive been wondering about , I said tentatively .

Go ahead , she encouraged .

I nodded , hesitating for a moment before speaking .

Is Miriam … and Lyla related in another way other than her being her nanny ? The Priestesss expression didnt change but her eyes seemed to darken with an emotion 1 couldnt quite place .

She looked at me for a long while before finally replying .

Is there any other way a Nanny is supposed to be related to a child they cared for ? Thats not what I mean , I sighed .

Lyla looks so much like Miriam .

They even have the same mole on the back of the ears and I know two people can have close resemblance but not to this extent .

I noticed it that day you arrived at White Moon with her .

I thought she was Lyla .

They dont look so alike , Ramsey .

If they do , that means Neriah would have two reincarnations .

I assure you they dont .

I know … I know but … they just feel like theres more going on .

I had Nannies , and … Sometimes , The Priestess interrupted me her lips curving into a faint , enigmatic smile .

Answers come when were ready to hear them .

Im sure whatever you seek to know now will be revealed to you in the nearest future .

For now , lets concentrate on brining Lyla back to us .